Is everyone okay? And, you know, you're just beginning sitting, I believe. If you get a lot more height under you, it will help you keep your back straight and your knees will touch. So when you try it at home, I would, you know, be twice or two and a half times higher than you are. And also helps stop having your back more straight and your chin pulled in helps stop thinking. And if you sit, even if your back is straight, you kind of sit like this, it's almost impossible not to bleed, you know.

[01:08]

You pull your chin a little and... And your eyes, you know, are part of your brain. And you want to... make your eyes just, boom, stop. Because if you can stop your eyes, your thinking is different. And if your eyes are moving like in REM sleep or awake, your mind is going. And if your eyes are moving like in REM sleep or awake, your mind is going. I believe in REM sleep, your brain is about three times as active as in normal waking. And I believe in the 50s, researchers first noticed it by watching the eyes move under the eyelids. So if you can make your eyes steady, it helps your state of mind and the way thinking appears.

[02:28]

And this form as emptiness also means manifestation and non-manifestation. So, I think the basic training for a NOH actor, I think the basic training for a NOH actor is to be able to move the body but keep the eyes riveted on a point. And if I, for instance, took a point somewhere between Mark and you in the middle of the air, So I wasn't looking at any person, but I was looking at that point, and yet I moved around in here.

[03:39]

It would begin to affect the way all of you felt. So the eyes are supposed to be quite still when you sit. Now this stick was given to me by Suzuki Roshi. And it has written on it something like the great cave of Zen enlightenment. So I'd like each of you to speak to me and to all of us from the great cave of your enlightenment and your delusion. And you don't have to say anything. I find it discouraging actually that so many of you don't say anything.

[04:41]

It's my only disappointment with coming to seminars, how few people are willing to put themselves out at the level of saying something. But the practice of my passing the stick to you is not to... get you necessarily to say something it's just a practice where we give each of you a moment and you cannot say anything just say hello to the stick and pass it to the next person I think we will start with our friend from Basel. And I think it's best to speak in German. and best speak in German.

[06:38]

I am happy to feel that if I leave everything behind me, I also leave everything behind. I'm pleased to have experienced that when I can leave everything behind, I can also include everything, and when I go backwards, I go forward at the same time. I just didn't know what it was. Can I just say something? Yes. It has been proven that everyone first says what he wants to say in German and then translates it himself, as well as possible. And if someone needs my help, he can tell me how I can translate it into English. For me it is always decisive, not just the words,

[07:47]

For me, it is very impressioningly important to experience yourself being as you are, which I can't translate in any words. From what we have talked about, it is very decisive and important for me to feel again that the rhythm that I always find more and more important in my life in order to live well, that there is a certain arc, a rhythm, a back and forth. That is why for me the zero and one and zero and two and zero and three is a very important Bewusstseinspunkt, wo ich mich viel mehr, also aware, which I can kiss me, that's very important. I learned that by living it's important for me, as in a way, or in a rhythm.

[09:05]

So I change always from one thing and I start to feel it, which is my real rhythm. And this zero, one, zero, two, just gives me a lot of help to feel that rhythm and to be aware about this weapon. This is my first living experience with Zen. I try to have my own experience. Okay. It's the first living experience for me. I recently leaned against a wall and looked up at the clouds.

[10:15]

They didn't come up so high. Suddenly the houses fell down. Everything fell. Everything fell. And that's the moment of my state. And today I'm in a little t-shirt. I can't go on anymore. It's crazy. Recently I've been leaning towards the wall and I looked at the sky above me and the clouds moving along the sky and then the houses opposite the wall started falling backwards. And ever since I'm in the midst of this experience of falling. And that's why I need a teacher. I can't go on any further without one. I was in contact with you for the first time a year ago, recently.

[11:19]

I am still at the very beginning of the practice. I am grateful that I was able to continue in this year with small steps, especially with three problems, with one of the problems. Some of you may remember that I was here last year, and I'm quite a beginner and very grateful for the steps I can take. Maybe some people remember my problem from last year, which I can sum up with the problem of extinguishing a forest fire.

[12:24]

And that's like you have to give up so much in order to start fresh. I don't think anyone can hear you in the back. I want to thank you for the experience that's been achieved. Thank you.

[13:31]

In doing this, you know, you don't have to speak to me, and I'm not going to respond to anything, but I'd like to hear anything. To the stick. Oh, good. Just talk to the stick. That's good. It's actually a secret microphone reaching to Buddha. These last few days I have always noticed that I am as confused as Leo. that my head does not understand very well and that there is something wrong with my body, and somewhere I feel the courage to trust my body more, and yesterday I also had the desire to step into my body, to dive into it,

[14:34]

I've experienced over and over again during these past two days that my head doesn't really comprehend what you've been teaching, but there's this knotting inside my body. So yesterday I came across the experience that I actually wanted to put my head inside my body. That was also my first deep experience, and I think that was my first deep experience with Zen. I have meditated a lot, but I have always been a little too hard and stubborn, and I have been thinking from the outside, from my imagination, and I am positively surprised.

[15:41]

This has taken me into Zen. especially with the teaching from Richard and especially with the explanation that you do not have to stand on your head, but you can feel a lot from your body. The only thing I missed when I came back from yoga was the body, and the body also feels with exercise. I noticed that sitting around and exercising was necessary. It was the first deeper experience with Zen. I was doing a lot of meditation, but never went into Zen because I had the ideas of it's too much thinking about health and discipline and all that.

[16:42]

But I was surprised, positively, and I really liked the early way of teaching. and explanations that I didn't have to understand anything with my head. I just feel it in my body. And the only thing I missed was the body experience, because I do yoga and body meditation time. So sometimes I just like to do some yoga. Keep your body out. Just be there, listening. All right, thank you. I have two things to discuss with you.

[17:49]

On the one hand, I have the feeling that I understand what 10 is. On the other hand, there is always the problem with everyday life. How do I connect with 10 in everyday life? I don't know how far I feel responsible at all. So, I'm trying to say, I feel uncomfortable in the Ashram recently. I enjoyed it. I could imagine to stay there for a very long time and never get out of it.

[18:57]

But then I have the problem with my regular life and i don't know i still don't know isn't right just to find my own way for myself or do i have to do also something for other people do i feel i feel somehow responsible but i don't know if i have to feel responsible if i have to do something and if i have to how they have to When I come to the seminars of Richard, I always have the feeling that I am entering a different time. The time seems to run slower or to stand still, and it always shocks me when I see that the old speed is back in everyday life.

[20:06]

When I come to the seminars of you, I always experience that time seems to stand still or flow slower for me than in my daily life, and I'm thinking about How is it possible that after the seminar the old time, the old pace comes back so fast? Why can't I keep this time feeling? Why can't I keep it in my daily life? After I have already done several sessions with other teachers and I was never really sure, I have now, after I have

[21:27]

When I saw Richard Baker for the first time three days ago in Freiburg at Michael Vetter's concert, he addressed me in such a way that I knew that he could be a teacher for me. I am now very happy to have the opportunity to attend sessions. And I'm looking forward to practicing and practicing with him. When I saw you for the first time in Freiburg, I felt that you are my teacher. He visited many different sessions before, but I think to be with you and to learn with you would be my way in the future.

[22:57]

So I'm glad to know you and I'm looking forward to the next session with you. But I am now in a very difficult situation because my girlfriend has gone and so My existence is at the ground, which I don't understand.

[24:03]

shaking so I understand very well so maybe you can give me advice what to do in such a situation when there is nothing more left you know so Maybe this is a good occupation for my exercise. But in the open I am very sad and I don't know how to go out of this sad situation. How to accept it?

[25:12]

Maybe. So, my question is how can I transform the feelings or this problem. Not to hold the girlfriend. The first step is not to hold onto the stick too long. I don't know where your friend was here.

[26:32]

I've seen you here one year before. I don't think it's the relationship of empty and formed. or a lot of continuity. I don't want to understand it as a question and answer, but as continuity directly in the process and as a big help, as a big help. And the Christmas seminar It's a good experience.

[27:42]

It's very good. Yes, now I feel also pop, [...] creates such an atmosphere of timelessness. And to have access to a state of mind through this Doramic Memory seems to be a possibility to digest a lot of things, so that I am content with the content.

[29:00]

And my question is, in what context I'm busy with a question since this morning. Not naming created an atmosphere of timelessness in the endless space and having access to a state of mind by Dioramic memory seems to me helps to digest a certain content. And now the question for me is, and I'm just with it, how from Buddhist understanding are you dealing with karma? Since this is content.

[30:02]

And so I'm just going to do that. From this seminar I take for myself a new goal to let go. I am very happy that I am doing this for myself at this moment as a task and I hope that I will be able Yes, I followed this principle. Something else that I experienced after this yesterday's day, which was so filled with so many new things, with so many new experiences, I was very relieved and full of strength. For me, a new aim is to let go, to leave things.

[31:09]

And I hope that I can reach this for a long time. And another experience that I had yesterday evening, after a long day with such a lot of experience and a lot of new things, I felt very light. very full of power. And this is also the thing I know that's the way for me to go further on. Thank you. Maybe you should go here. Okay, go ahead. I came to the interview for the first time with this book called Heart Search. And that moved me to a deeper level. It fell on a deep scene along this path.

[32:38]

I also realized how far our path is. I was already at the very beginning of the scene. And it was very helpful for me that one young woman, two young women For me it was the third time I came in contact with the Heart Sutra. And it felt a very deep journey, so this part of me And I said, what a thing I am, and how far away it is, and how funny it is.

[33:44]

So for me, it was very helpful when you demonstrated 1, 0, 2, 0, so that I can allow myself to take this path in this written I just want to record that. Hi. Maybe here, yeah. I had a nice experience at the last session. Baker also told us that the mind is physical, and that the physical also has something to do with the mind, i.e. with this spectrum, and I heard that and thought, well, that's a nice theory, and I would like to believe it, but I would rather know about it. When I was sitting, I had a lot of pain in my knees, so I had the usual, and then I saw myself after the valois balcony, and then I had to think of the film that I saw yesterday in the cinema.

[35:03]

and for me this film was like a sutra, it was a film after a novel by Isaac Singer, and it was about Jewish emigrants in New York everyone had thought about the Holocaust, but could no longer find their way around it. There was a lot of humor and a lot of tragedy in this film, and also this coincidence of humor and tragedy, joy and pain, it was like a train wreck. I then thought about the heroes, This is a man who suddenly has three women, because one of them has also emerged from Europe. With one, he is free according to Jewish law, with the other according to worldly law.

[36:09]

He is a frugal, a Casanova, who no longer gets along. And I just thought of him now, and I just had the intuition, yes, that's good too, and then I really just felt how it all happened, like suddenly a shower, and I was very happy, and I wanted to sit on the chair for another half an hour, so I didn't have any pain. That might have been an experience, but now I have to get used to it. So I had a beautiful experience. You told us about the physicality of thought, and I thought, yes, it sounds very good, but I don't know whether to experience it and then believe it.

[37:21]

So the last meditation, Actually, I was with Christoph last night. He told me everything. This evening I have seen everything. Daddy said all the time. But I'm fine again. At this weekend I have the feeling that I didn't understand anything at all. But I felt a lot in my body. Going back to that weekend, I feel I did not understand one thing.

[38:34]

This weekend? This weekend, yes. But it felt right in my body. What I have found very strongly, and I really like to say this, is strong counter-examples, for example, My main perception during this weekend was that there were many contradictions. For example, I was sitting and longing for it to end, and at the same time I wished it would go. The peculiar thing is that these opposites make me feel incredibly alive internally.

[39:36]

It is a very great feeling. The strange thing at the same time is that these contradictions make me feel very alive. At the moment I feel very satisfied and I would like to thank you both. At the moment I feel very good and I want to thank you very much. For me, it was the first time I saw it. And that left me with deep impressions.

[40:38]

And I hope that I can feel it again. That I can feel it again. That was my first contact with Zen and it left very deep impressions and I hope I can feel that again. I didn't understand Swiss, German completely, so maybe somebody could chip in big Swiss. And I'm very grateful for the calm I've experienced.

[41:46]

I have known the world of my body for a short time. that I am actually proud of it. And I also have this weekend, where I also have the feeling that I have understood the head, I have understood my body very much. that I feel very comfortable with the many thoughts that have arisen in this room. And I think that this experience, where I have perceived this place of silence for the next time, I wish you a good journey and I thank all of you.

[42:54]

Not long ago since I first had the experience that my body is very valuable to me. Now I'm here in this seminar and I don't understand very much as well my head, but my body gives me very good feedback and I'm very quite grateful to everybody. For me, it is also a further contact with Zen and Buddhism, I have to say that I felt the same way as many others. At the beginning I was very confused and I did not understand a lot, especially expressions like Dharma and all these things, Mantras, etc.

[44:08]

And then I heard that all of this is not important anyway, that these are just words. And then I set it to zero and looked a little inside. I have noticed that there are very strong feelings and especially yesterday evening I felt totally relaxed and it was very nice for me and I think that I will continue the way, especially the sitting, because it brings me a lot. So this was my first contact with Zen and Buddhism and at the beginning I was much confused especially by the words like Dharma, Karma and all that stuff But then you said that words are not important and that nothing is actually important and you should forget everything.

[45:11]

So I set all back to zero and I listened to myself and then I felt a lot of things and this was a very strong experience. Yesterday evening I was completely relaxed and I think that the sitting will bring a lot of things for me as well. It will help me a lot and I think I will continue with that and I want to thank you and the group. After a break of maybe seven years, it made me happy to sit here with you again. And especially the focus that Roshi put on physical existence left a very good feeling in my body. And I hope that this will continue for the next seven years.

[46:13]

laughter laughter After a break of about seven years it was nice for me to sit with you here and especially the focus of your physical existence produced a good feeling in my body and I hope that this feeling will continue for the next seven years. Well, I have nothing to say, because all is said that has to be said.

[47:19]

Thank you. I am a Catholic, and for 20 years I have hated the Catholic Church. And I have suppressed all my religious feelings somewhere. because it has restricted me too much, and I am glad that I can respect my religious feelings more, but in a way in which I also feel freedom, and I don't know how to go about it, but I just feel that I have to better respect my own religious needs. I can imagine that I could go in this direction, I can't translate it. and now being here I realize that I have to respect my religious needs more and take care of them better.

[48:29]

Because here I felt being in touch with my religious feelings, but also some freedom. And I don't know where I'm going, but I'm considering that maybe this could be my path. Did I do it right, Professor? Yes, you did. I like the posture of this day very much. And I heard for the first time that Dharma means posture. And I would like to ask, what kind of posture is that? I appreciate the attitude of the day or of the seminar and have heard for the first time that Dharma means to hold and have a question, what is this that we are holding?

[49:49]

And have a request to be able to do a walking holding or a walking meditation if time allows.

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